Brooklyn Nine-Nine’s Stephanie Beatriz Got Real About Her Disordered Eating and It’s a Must-Read
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Brooklyn Nine-Nine’s Stephanie Beatriz Got Real About Her Disordered Eating and It’s a Must-Read

Netflix’s To the Bone has ignited many discussions about anorexia in recent months, with star Lily Collins revealing her own struggles with the illness. It’s a difficult subject for many to talk about, but it seems as though celebrities are becoming increasingly candid about their struggles, and a recent essay by Brooklyn Nine-Nine star Stephanie Beatriz about her own disordered eating is all-too relatable for many people.

Beatriz, who plays the secretly soft but tough-on-the-outside Detective Rosa Diaz on the Fox show, says her issues with food and body image are harder to define, since they don’t fit within the confines of anorexia or bulimia. “I’m what I like to call ‘a disordered eater,'” she wrote in her essay for InStyle.

Disordered eating can include compulsively eating, restricting your eating, or binge eating — or, in Beatriz’s case, all three.

“Disordered eater, I know you… You only eat certain foods that you’ve deemed ‘healthy,’ and the list of what is okay shrinks every time you read a new book or article on the subject,” she wrote. “You eat whatever you want and then spend hours at the gym as a way to counteract it… Maybe today you had green juices and a vegan burrito so now you ‘deserve’ a large pizza and chicken bites. But, f**k, that means you screwed up, so tomorrow it’s only juice all day long.”

In the past, one of Beatriz’s triggers was taking promo pics for Brooklyn Nine-Nine. In the lead-up to a photo shoot, she would become extra critical of her body, restrict her eating, and obsessively exercise. But even after achieving a set goal, she wouldn’t be satisfied, and that’s when she started to realize it wasn’t about dieting.

“I used the size of my ass and flatness of my stomach as the answer to everything that was wrong with my life and why I couldn’t seem to feel really, truly happy. … I thought by controlling what I ate I was controlling my fate, when it was ultimately controlling me.”

Beatriz says the biggest job of her life has been to teach that critical voice inside her “how to start dreaming and thinking bigger than her body size.” She has another Brooklyn Nine-Nine photo shoot coming up in a few weeks, and this time around, she’s nourishing her body instead of depriving or punishing it. “Most importantly, I’m telling myself that I am perfect and lovely just the way I am, even if I start crying as I say it,” she wrote.

“You want in on this?” Beatriz asked readers. “Take some time and talk to your own little voice. What do you think she’s trying to say when she talks about food or your body? What’s underneath all her control and fear? I bet it’s your best self, just waiting to come out. Bring her to tea; ask her what’s up. It might be damn hard to hear her real thoughts under all that nonsense, but I promise you, it’s easier than letting her, and your disordered eating, run your life.”

What do you think about Stephanie Beatriz’s essay? Let us know @BritandCo!

(h/t InStyle; photo via Charley Gallay/Getty)