Selena Gomez tends to be fairly reserved when it comes to talking about her personal life. She waited several months to share with fans that she underwent a聽kidney聽transplant in 2017, and she was relatively tight-lipped on her rumored brief reunion with ex-boyfriend Justin Bieber, too. In recent months, she鈥檚 been almost entirely absent from the spotlight, and now, in a new interview, she鈥檚 opening up a little about why.

鈥淚t鈥檚 peaceful. It鈥檚 weird. The moment I turned 26, I felt 26,鈥 she told Ellein an interview for the magazine鈥檚 October issue. 鈥淩ight now, I feel very sure of where I am. I don鈥檛 feel erratic or emotionally unstable. Or like I can鈥檛 handle my emotions, like I used to. It鈥檚 kind of understanding myself a little more. By all means I don鈥檛 have myself figured out. But it feels good.鈥

While she鈥檚 still busy acting, writing new music, and producing the next season of the Netflix hit 13 Reasons Why, Gomez told Elle that she鈥檚 trying to 鈥渄ownsize鈥 her life and go 鈥渂ack to simplicity.鈥 As part of that, she鈥檚 working as an intern for A21, an anti-human trafficking organization. She started volunteering with the organization full-time in March, after another member of her church (the famous Hillsong congregation) invited her to see the work they do.

She also moved out of LA and has limited her access to social media. She told Elle she hasn鈥檛 been on the internet 鈥渋n months鈥 and only posts to Instagram from the phone of a friend who has access to her account. And it鈥檚 not just her own privacy she wants to protect.

When the conversation turns to Demi Lovato鈥檚 reported overdose, Gomez gets emotional, telling the magazine, 鈥淎ll I鈥檓 saying is, I reached out personally. I didn鈥檛 do a public thing. I didn鈥檛 want to. I鈥 love her. I鈥檝e known her since I was seven. So鈥t鈥檚鈥hat鈥檚 what I鈥檒l say.鈥

She鈥檚 more comfortable talking about her new music. She told Elle about one song in particular, 鈥淔lawless,鈥 which is about loving yourself no matter what. 鈥淢eaning through all your imperfections, you鈥檙e flawless,鈥 she told the mag. 鈥淵ou鈥檙e not striving. It鈥檚 me encouraging a younger version of myself. Even when you鈥檙e imperfect, even when you鈥檙e feeling worthless, you are flawless.鈥

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